Why "71º & Sunny?"

I consider 71º to be the perfect temperature. Not too cold and not too hot. I also love perfect sunny days. The vast majority of days are not 71º & Sunny and yet, all days were created by God's hand and they are still gifts, even if they don't fit my ridiculous definition of perfection. My struggle with OCD has at times imprisoned me in an impossible attempt to achieve perfection. I'm now learning to love all kinds of days that don't even come close to 71º & Sunny.

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Thursday, May 5, 2016

God's Comfort In Suffering

It would not be a complete tapestry without
all of the different colors and patterns.
Though my OCD symptoms are much less agonizing than they were before I underwent Exposure and Response Prevention Therapy (ERP), there are still some days filled with pain and suffering. And there are times when I question what God is doing in my life, and why He allowed me to live with a chronic mental illness.

I've recently started therapy with a lovely young Christian counselor and she has been a blessing to me. We are working through the remnants of OCD, depression, and the recent discovery I've made about being an extra emotionally sensitive person. In session yesterday, we were talking about a lot of these things and I also mentioned to her about my struggle with daily Bible reading. God has been reminding me that I really need to incorporate this into my lifestyle. My therapist suggested purchasing a new devotional, so as soon as my session ended, I marched myself down to the local Christian bookstore and purchased two new devotionals.

One of the devotionals I picked up is entitled "The God of all Comfort: Devotions of hope for those who chronically suffer," by Judy Gann. I was touched by the first entry that I read this morning, and I wanted to share a passage of it with you, in hopes that you may be comforted too:

"In my limited understanding, I view my pain as a knotty hindrance. However, God sees a different picture, a complete picture. He sees my weaknesses as essential threads in the unique tapestry he is creating of my life.
Not until my life, your life, is finished and silent, will we understand the darker threads of our human tapestries and their contribution to the beauty of our unique design.
We may disagree with God's choice of colors. But we are works in progress-still stretched on God's loom." Pg. 4
Yesterday, my therapist reminded me that we already know what the final chapter of life eternal will look like. And what a glorious chapter it will be! God bless my friends. 

4 comments:

  1. Monique, how lovely to see your post in my news feed! Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and struggles, and your therapist sounds wonderful! Warm hugs and much love.

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    1. Oh she really is a wonderful lady and I'm so lucky to have found her. I'm really glad you stopped by Linda. I hope you are doing a bit better these days. Hugs back at ya!

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  2. Hi Monique! Thanks for the great post. One of my favorite songs right now is "Tell your heart to beat again" by Danny Gokey. One of my favorite lines in the song is "Let every heartbreak and every scar be a picture that reminds you who has carried you this far. Cuz love sees farther than you ever could, in this moment heaven's working everything for your good". I take a lot of comfort from those 2 phrases, as I know that God has been with me, and will continue to be with me, every step of battling OCD. He has seen our whole lives play out and I believe that there is some reason for this suffering with OCD, as hard as it is to see in the midst of the struggle. Hugs!

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    1. Oh I'm so glad you liked the post! I will definitely have to check that song out, thanks for sharing that. Oh yes, God has already seen the entire span of our lives. So important to remember that, but easy to forget when things are tough. I hope you are doing well. Hugs to you too, friend.

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