|It would not be a complete tapestry without|
all of the different colors and patterns.
Though my OCD symptoms are much less agonizing than they were before I underwent Exposure and Response Prevention Therapy (ERP), there are still some days filled with pain and suffering. And there are times when I question what God is doing in my life, and why He allowed me to live with a chronic mental illness.
I've recently started therapy with a lovely young Christian counselor and she has been a blessing to me. We are working through the remnants of OCD, depression, and the recent discovery I've made about being an extra emotionally sensitive person. In session yesterday, we were talking about a lot of these things and I also mentioned to her about my struggle with daily Bible reading. God has been reminding me that I really need to incorporate this into my lifestyle. My therapist suggested purchasing a new devotional, so as soon as my session ended, I marched myself down to the local Christian bookstore and purchased two new devotionals.
One of the devotionals I picked up is entitled "The God of all Comfort: Devotions of hope for those who chronically suffer," by Judy Gann. I was touched by the first entry that I read this morning, and I wanted to share a passage of it with you, in hopes that you may be comforted too:
"In my limited understanding, I view my pain as a knotty hindrance. However, God sees a different picture, a complete picture. He sees my weaknesses as essential threads in the unique tapestry he is creating of my life.
Not until my life, your life, is finished and silent, will we understand the darker threads of our human tapestries and their contribution to the beauty of our unique design.
We may disagree with God's choice of colors. But we are works in progress-still stretched on God's loom." Pg. 4
Yesterday, my therapist reminded me that we already know what the final chapter of life eternal will look like. And what a glorious chapter it will be! God bless my friends.