Staying motivated to fight OCD is hard work. Because OCD is a chronic illness (some people do recover fully or almost fully - but it is somewhat uncommon), it means a life-long battle against the frightening thoughts that stalk us. Day in and day out, staying ahead of OCD is a challenge for me. I was just sharing with my support group last night that I'm definitely in a plateau. You see, after 2 1/2 years of CBT/ERP, I have recovered quite a bit. My life is not the living hell that it once was. There are so many days now that I am actually giddy with joy because of how I've gotten so much of my life back. Just being alive, and seeing the sun, and hearing the birds, and, and, and . . .
However, there is still so much more of my life that is in the stranglehold of OCD. As far as I've come, I know that there is a long way to go. It's just that I'm not in constant torment anymore, and frankly, I'd like to stay away from the pain as much as possible. Hmm . . . that kind of sounds like avoidance, doesn't it? So that is why I'm not really moving forward on fighting the obsessions and compulsions that still follow me around everywhere I go. I know that once I start fighting again, I will have to feel that old familiar pain. BUT, I also know from previous experience, that that pain will be short lived and it will lead to more freedom. So how do I motivate myself to move forward?
By reminding myself of everything that OCD has taken away from me. By remembering that OCD has limited me as a mom, a wife, a daughter, a friend, in ministry to others, in serving God, and in being the kind of person that I want to be.
I want to move forward, but I'm afraid. What motivates you to move forward?