|Yep, that's a LOT of perfume!|
I actually have a healthy obsession. Well, at least I think it's healthy! I am in LOVE with perfumes. Yes, I've (well, at least I'm trying to) become a perfume connoisseur. It all started in the last few years. I began to put on a lot of weight, and clothes shopping was no longer fun for me. I didn't feel that great about makeup either because I didn't like the way I looked. But, what I realized about perfume, is that I could wear it and feel feminine, and it fits every size and shape. Now, it's actually become a bit of a passion of mine and it no longer has anything to do with how I look. It does, however, have a lot to do with how I feel.
|La Petite Robe Noire by Guerlain|
- a new favorite in miniature.
When I'm experiencing anxiety, I try to be mindful of my environment and pay attention to my senses. One of the most powerful of them is the sense of smell. Until I began CBT/ERP, I had never before really paid much attention to my environment. I was always stuck in my head with terrible thoughts constantly swirling in never ending torment. I have since literally learned to stop and smell the roses (or, tuberose, in my case).
When I spritz or sprinkle on some new exotic "juice" (as they refer to it in the perfume biz), it evokes all kinds of feelings for me. Some scents, like lavender, are soothing and relaxing. Others, like vanilla, remind me of food and comfort. Some are energizing and some are just plain fun (Aquolina's Pink Sugar, anyone?). Like reading an intriguing book, perfumes have a way of transporting me to another place in my mind.
Unfortunately, I do have quite expensive taste. Have no fear, though, I've found a way around that. There's a certain makeup retailer that gives you 3 free samples every time you place an order, so I've been able to stock my perfumery quite inexpensively. Believe it or not, I've bought makeup just so I could get the 3 free samples! Even better, I've just discovered that there are some very high end perfume retailers that will sell you sample bottles. What better way to experience a $200 bottle of perfume that would normally never be in my reach! In addition, I'm starting to collect miniature perfume bottles. Again, these are at a fraction of the cost of the larger bottles, and some of the miniatures are little works of art in glass. They are literally eye candy for the sense of sight.
|L De Lolita Lempicka|
- beautiful miniature
and so yummy!
It might seem silly, but I do consider this one more little tool in my kit for fighting anxiety. It's an additional "trick" that helps me escape anxiety land. Plus, I figure if I push this angle - you know, the whole "perfume as therapy thing" - that my husband will be a proponent of keeping my juice supply full and plentiful. Ha ha.